MUSABLE.ME

A little trauma from being arrested. I really am quite the catch, aren’t I?

Thank you for pulling me out of my rabbit hole. I’m at the apartment. All good.

I grabbed a lyft to get pack of smokes. The app screwed up, or I did for the location to Walgreens. She was on a mission to get me smokes. Wouldn’t take no for an answer.

We were driving around for about half an hour. She was not giving up. I was actually over it before her.

Everything closes around here early since covid. We failed at our mission, but we had a good conversation.

1am, It’s time for bed

Oh, since it’s an emotional day, or week month year. I swear I’m going to get back to the dick jokes at some point. 

I would never let you have to take all that on by yourself.

 It’s all about communication in my mind. We do that really well. It’s like butter. Hell, even with what little we have now.

I will be a partner if you have me. That I promise. 

December 4th. Hell or high water. I’m doing my best to behave and take care of things. Even myself.

I am going to try to get your input on things before I do them, not after. I think it’s past time.

I think I am interpreting this right. Let me know. Ditto…

LUN. That one I think you will get. I miss you.

Going to bed. Talk soon.

Thank you for letting me know. I really felt like I fucked things up beyond repair. There is nothing I want more in this world than that.

Nothing I ever have before.

I really don’t know what to do. I wish we could talk. And I so wish I had those snores in my ear. Hand over my chest. One leg over mine. That smile, I miss that the most.

You really are a bit more attractive than jail guy. And, well, titties… He was lacking. I miss titty time.

It feels like everything is coming to a head. On both of our ends.

We have until December.
More latter.

(Insert dick joke here)

LUAT

My Dumb ass lost that hair tie I have had around my three fingers for a while now. Found it on the ground outside. Then proceeded to immediately lose it again.

It’s in my apartment somewhere, I have a backup on my wrist. Need you with me.

Feels weird not having it on my hand. Like a ring you are used to wearing…

I got some food. Going to fuck around some and get to the filings again. I’m reading between the lines.

I’m just tired darling. I’m reaching out. I do need to be checked. That is obvious.

I fucked up with you even; I did not want to ever have you mad at me or cause you any problems. That is the last thing I ever wanted. I love you dearly.

I’m not done chasing you, just need to take care of my shit. I know.

I am going to start reading you ready player one soon. I said I would. Kind of want to read it myself again anyway.

Nothing interesting to report other than the drama. Been keeping to myself other than talking to friends online.

Sure I’ll have more here latter, I’ll try to make a dick joke or two to lighten the mood here. There is quite a story on this site.

LTELSOOYAAF… Still want you to guess, my one-way rectangle Canadian girlfriend. I haven’t heard a no.

My friend, Rachael of 30 years gave me the business. Needed that. Been kind of in my own head.

I don’t know what you think anymore. I have made some bad decisions.

The savior complex is strong with this one for one thing, Oh, did I get it. She’s awesome, I like getting checked.

Ditto still? Either way LU. Hard to understand what’s up.

WLUNMW.

I have ready player one on my phone.

way too late

I may have someplace to go in NY. I’d consider it at this point. I have a number of friends that live there.

Apparently, people talk about me there. Not real clear on that. someone said I had an inappropriate relationship with Trey. Only to certain people.

So different friends were getting different posts. I didn’t see them. The fuck?

LU. No, I Love you.

and Grovel, grovel.

Going to bed.

i am still fried, need someone to bounce ideas off of.

Jill 2 is amazing. So, want you to meet her. She has been through the shit and gets it all. Talked to her for a while today.

I have a feeling we won’t have the same problems next time we are in proximity.

I am wearing the underwear you got me. It occurred to how much that meant today. You seriously got me underwear. Oh lady, you are in trouble.

Give me a sign. I need it Ditto.

ltlsooyfe. and again, I really am proud of you, you worked hard at that for a long time. You are amazing! That’s my Jillian!

Also grovel, grovel. Still need to. I don’t know for sure how much longer, we have semi a one way communication thing going. I will err on the side of caution. Makes me a bit much,

Love You. Someday my darling. No one has had made me as happy as you. I don’t think you always saw thar huge smile on my face as we fell asleep together.

Oh, actually December 4th. I will come down there and carry you to Vegas. or preferably somewhere closer I’m old. I can hire an Elvis impersonator to watch.

You love me…(…)

Hi. I’m getting to work, they have me completely overwhelmed.

I did at least make an inroad with my father. I just asked hm to think about it and told him I understood and loved him.

I don’t know what I’m doing at all. Just telling the truth, it’s what I do.

I have to deal with a bunch of shit today. Made a very bold move with an email to the second lawyer from the same firm they had call me. I must have scared the first. I threatened going to the bar for working with them. I have enough and told them what I knew happened. That’s why they got a more senior lawyer after me. I think he is one of the partners.

He mirrored staj’s language.

Fun stuff.

I don’t have this; they are throwing everything at me. I’m trying, More latter today. Love the ever-living shit out of you.

I do have a plan c and d. Hate having to have a plan d. I’ll be ok.

Dick jokes latter… (…)

P. S. Got some protein. Thank you.

7pm

Hi hun.

Needed a day today. It’s Friday nothing is happening anyway for a couple days.

How are you?

I have absolutely nothing interesting to talk about. Been keeping to myself.

Still owe you a Valentine’s something. Haven’t figured it out yet. You may get it 2 months late. But you’ll get it. You might need to get used to that. Well, I hope you will.

Still not too bad of weather here. Mother nature isn’t trying to kill me. That’s always nice.

Haven’t come up with a good dick joke yet.

LU. More latter. Taking it easy. Still have the hair band on my three fingers.

2am

Time for bed very soon. It was good to talk to Rachel. We always look out for each other.

I’m kind of a mess still. My family did good in court. We have been at odds, my father told me everything that happened. He also told me they hadn’t talked to Anastasia, when I know they have. They sent me an email saying it, might just be guilt. I let it go.

Wish we were together.

Love you, Need a ditto

I couldn’t understand it with not being able to talk..

Ill give up if you want.

I’m in love with a girl…

Hi! I’m absolutely fried I just want to talk to you.

Today was nothing but legal shit. I think I did good. It was kind of fun to deal with the lawyer. She didn’t seem too good. Kind of made some waves to try to get them to leave people alone. Mostly you. I told them no Jillian!

It was defiantly Staj that made all that shit happen. She was most likely one that talked to Joe. I really think I should have them backed off now. This time for sure?

I laid it all out to the lawyer, more after her initial response. She should be able to explain their liability. Spiro Won’t want to take the risk.

Ya, my life, and yours… I will not let them fuck with you anymore. Let me know if you notice anything,

God damn full-time job.

11:30

I came across parts of our chats looking for something. I got verklempt. You’re so nice to me. I have never felt so loved. I miss that.

Heading off to bed soon, 1204LU

Staj should be advised by her lawyer to stay out of your life now.

Haven’t gotten a doughnut, just seems like a good idea. Maybe latter.

Got my shit done that needed to happen today. More to do, not as pressing, I’ll get my second wind after a quick nap.

Mostly just wanted to say hi. Miss you. This would be easier with you by my side.

I’ll write more latter after a nap. LEELSOOU… (…)

4:23

Hi darling. Got me a short napper in. Love me a disco nap.

More work to do, going to just fuck around a while.

I’m in deal with shit mode for a while still. Nothing too interesting going on.

Emailed that lawyer again. She didn’t respond to one thing I asked before. That’s a staj tactic. Lawyers will normally at least respond to questions.

This boy is going to go for a short walk and play a little before getting back to it,

I really need to figure out an income stream. Really expected to be home. Wanted to get that settled and go from there. Plans keep changing as my situation does. Makes my head spin.

I’ve never been in this situation. I’m kind of going for broke here. Thinking of you in all this also. It’s a lot of money to be able to start over.

If I can pull it off, I may just carry on the red dog charity and try to grow that. I was on the brink before things went to shit.

Might make your family thing a tisk better of me. Govel, grovel.

LU

5:10

Got me a Doughnut.

Ate my Doughnut and finished filling everything. My dumb ass put it in the wrong case. Ya, have that many cases. Think I’m up tov 7. Nothing I ever thought I would have to deal with.

Seriously, marry me, much easier to get rid of. but you won’t…

And I give good back rubs. I even do the feet. Although, I may try to get some after that… If it’s a full body rub with the lotion all over, you are defiantly in trouble.

7:20
What voodoo do you have? Stuck in my head. Might need to grab something from the bank.

Also a one way relationship, where I need to try to read between the lines is really hard.

I’m going with it, You’ll tell me if I’m on the wrong path.

I’m more lovey dovy as I don’t know what’s going on and can’ talk to you. So you’re getting a lot of it.

Love the ever living shit out of you. We will do this and It’s going to be amazing. You could be behind me on the chair right now talking shit and pushing your feet on my back to be an asshole as I am on my computer. That may also make me make a move also.

Dec 4th. I’m still on. hope we can make it work,

I’m, shall we say, am a little behind I really thought I was going to be able to home and deal with that. That would give me the space I needed. Was kind of counting on it, it was part of the plan. Just waiting on the courts now.

It’s still pretty nice here still. Blue coat is enough. Nice to be able to go outside and not think mother nature is trying to kill you. Waiting on 2nd and 3rd winter,

Working on getting the shit together I didn’t plan on having to. I have kind of lost some of my funny (Oh, and i am funny) with everything. I’ll bring it back soon.

IALTELSOOY, always. Easy one…

More latter, I’m sure.

1:52

Nice work on possible full time. Just read your email. Part of what you need.

I am so fucking proud of you. I can only assume a lot of what is going on with you and read between the lines, I’m guessing I have the basics.

These assholes

Just got a letter from one of their lawyers in Staj’s name. They have control over probate for now.

I have wanted to be away from these people for so long.

They are willing to negotiate according to the letter from the lawyer. I’ll look to doing that, which should end this and still be enough. I may have pulled enough off to not get completely screwed.

I may have a few cards up my sleeve. Dealing with it tonight.

7:30

Hi love. I miss you, could use that Joey Ramone hair now, and my smile.

Have to write that filing and file it, looking like it’s just a response. Weird to only have a day to do it. They are trying to bury me in legal stuff as promised. Not sure how they even pulled that off.

Shouldn’t take long.

I really, really miss you. I’m trying to make this end. I’m doing my best. I am running out of steam to deal with this.

Any advice? I’ll take it in the white space. Burnt out.

I love you dearly. I just want to talk to you. That’s all I want right now.

11PM

Actually, had a pretty good night. Got a good interview and conversation with someone and got someone else someplace safe to stay outside. It was where we went in the park. It’s secluded and safe.

Makes me feel better to help.

I’m going to do what I can to get those donations back. There was a long and detailed email to their lawyer. Been waiting for one to contact.

They look like absolute assholes from taking those donations. It’s part of the interview from tonight.

LUUMW, Hard one. ahh, joke there… or a brat…

12:10

Just remembered, I know that reporter from WCCO that is part of a big charity for the homeless. I had to do an on-camera interview because Andrea was drunk and drove away. They wanted to talk to her.

I didn’t know as much then and kind of did ok. I Have a recording of it. We had a really good talk about everything. He is all about it. i know a lot more now.

Shot him a text. There is a story here. I’m working every angle. Wading through the shit river. Lots of punts here. Lots of money and future at stake, and the donations. Could have used them tonight.

1:30

I’m off to bed. Still have the pink hair tie on three fingers like a totally normal person. Old enough to not care.

Talk when you can. LUD… Ditto? Adam gets insecure when he doesn’t know anything. He also talks about himself in the third person at times… An ongoing joke.

Be safe and happy darling. Goodnight. My crook awaits you. Crook got misspelled accidently as something close at first. I’ll let you figure that out.